Remeber This…

Ok let me be the first to say that sometimes we all deserve a little treat. Even when we are trying to eat healthier and lose weight. I think from time to time enjoying something that makes us happy is ok, as long as its just every once in a while not every 8hrs. Now with that said I want a Milky Way! Its that time of the month for me and i want chocolate. This is a huge step because normaly i want a keg of coke and 10 chocolate cakes so wanting just one little Milky Way is super awesome. I even made sure to leave enough calories and carbs available in my daily intake. I asked brad to get me one on my way home, he had school tonight so i sat there waiting on him every now and then thinking about how awesome it was going to be to enjoy it. I havent had hardly any chocolate in 3 weeks. The chocolate i did have really shouldnt be called that since its was a SMART ONES dessert thing, which you have to microwave and try to enjoy your semi defrosted “cake” which only takes 3.5 bites to finish. And i was actually ok with that. I havent even(by some awesome miracle) craved anything that i normally eat, i even passed up King cake at Brads birthday dinner!!! I THINK I DESERVE A FREAKING MILKY WAY !!!  Do you think he got it? NO he did not, and why do you think he didnt get it. Was it because he wishes death on himself?… NO! Was it because he is just dumb?… NO! It’s because for so long he has wanted me to do this, finally take charge of my weight and become thinner and now that I am he is making sure i dont “slip” he has become the Hitler of the diet world!!! Now if he wanted it, we would have a freezer FULL!!!!

Yes i know i sound rude, and very negative and ungreatful that i have lost 19lbs. I am SOOO greatful and have no thoughts or returning back to that way… With that said, i still want a Milky Way!!!

How some people can be so cruel and sick . Child Thrown…

To clean and be creative:

 I suddenly feel the need to purge and clean everything and its not even Spring. I keep a clean house, the cleanest i have ever for a long period of time that is. We are by no means gross but for a long time i just kept things going. Now that my kids are older and keep it mainly in their rooms and i really do love my house its different. The kind of cleaning i want to do is where you mop everything, wipe it all down, organize the closets,etc… Know what I mean?! Open the windows let in the breeze type of cleaning. The only bad thing is, its like 30 something degrees out and raining off an on so opening the windows wouldn’t be to good right now… I still am doing it tomorrow, unless i wake up an don’t have any urge!

The creative is i want to get somethings done around my house, painting,decorating & gardening. Two of these things cant happen until March but i do want to start doing some things around here that i had to put off due to the holidays and all…

My “healthy eating” is going well. I have been experimenting with some recipes,etc. Haven’t had heart burn since this started. I’ve been of cokes for two weeks. I am getting a exercise bike tomorrow! SUPER excited about that. I have to work on my water intake, i suck at that. I am really proud of myself. Yesterday was the hardest day for me. I wanted a huge burger and fries sooooooo bad but i didn’t and that’s a huge thing here folks. Oh well, Brads playing Halo(surprise) I think I’m going to go read for a little while….

What a busy but the good kind of busy weekend. We went to my good friend Laura’s house/town for dinner & a movie for Brads birthday. Its about an hour from here so not that far but far enough to feel like a little get a way. It was nice, we went and saw JUNO, and then we went and ate a nice Mexican resturant, then back to their place and played games till almost 1am, and then we drove home! After a exhausting and what seemed like forever hour long drive we got home around 2am, but it was worth it! We had a great time, that is except for the fact that i lost my wedding ring!!! Yep, you read that right, its gone for good! I dont know when it happened, its been a little loose 1. because I have cut off all cokes and cut back on my sodium intake as well, so im not swelling like i used to and then it was cold so my hands werent as tight. By the time i realized we had been to 2 places, we went back to the Theater and searched(even the trash can) and left a description of it…. but its gone!   I really am sad. When i think about it i have a sick feeling in my stomach. I tried wearing my older wedding band but its not the same, I loved my ring! Kinda silly i know, but i almost hope it got thrown away because i hate to imagine someone taking it home and wearing it because it isnt theirs!!!  Oh well, enough said about that, whats done is done…

Well i havent posted much this week. It’s been one of those weeks, gloomy and raining outside. I also have had a caffine withdrawl headache on and off for 3 days now. I knew it would happen since i was all about the caffine, even when i wasnt drinking coke i was eating chocolate or drinking tea so there was always some in my system. I dont plan on stopping tea and chocolate but i am trying to “purge” my system so that i dont go bonkers like i always do so im not eating it right now. So in return my body is very angry with me. I dont blame it one bit. I am actually some what proud of myself. Brad has even “cheated” on this healthier way of living and normally thats all it takes for me to cave but i havent. Now if i could just start walking and drinking more water life would be grand! Baby steps… I am so ready for it to be Saturday. We are going out of town to see some friends and i can not wait! Just to be out doing something fun with fun people will be nice. We were originally going to stay over night but that has since changed. It will still be a nice trip regaurdless… I am two days behind on my daily photo’s, with all the gloom and headaches i havent been taking many pictures. I hope to post some today though, thats if i can resist crawling into bed as soon as brad gets home and sleeping until Saturday.

More of him is white today, wont be long now.

When you do something that you think is so “blah” but people end up liking it? I made chicken with bow tie noodles last night. Basically its chicken browned or boiled however you choose to cook it. Cut up/shredded and put in a cream of mushroom sauce then mixed with the noodles. Nothing fancy here on flavor. I have in my opinion cooked many things that are WAY better but wouldnt you knowmy kids LOVE it! I mean so much so they asked for leftovers tonight and when i said we didnt have any(because they ate it all) they asked for me to cook it again! I have cooked this before but the kids were much smaller so they dont remember it. The only other dish they have “RAVED” over this much is Cheesy Chicken Spaghetti, and even that i understand because its actually really yummy!!! They are strange little creatures…

Now for the sad part of this post. I have to lose weight. I mean ive been needing to, since i am quite large but its a “MUST” now because im going to be in a wedding soon and i cant look like this. I hate how you know you need to diet/lose weight but until some kind of event comes up it never really hits you, and then its to late!!! You have to go to these events looking like Fatty McFatter while everyone else flutters around in their size 5 dresses talking about how fat they look! Do they not see you? Do they think we wont realize we are way bigger?! BLAH So yeah im a little bitter about the situation(diet, not the wedding) but my resolution for this year was to get healthier so its not like i didnt plan sometime this year to get it started, just i mean its just the 10th of the new year! I have not yet decided how to go about this. I know i want us to eat better foods,etc but im going to have to do more then that to drop some fast weight before this wedding. Let the games begin!!!

A little something to look forward too… Tomorrow night a new GREY’s ANATOMY!!! WOOHOO

This has been the longest week ever!!! It’s finally coming to an end. Not that i have huge weekend plans but geesh im ready to not have to get up at 630am! Not much going on here. Its been yuck outside and the same inside. I’ve been really blah this week. Guess the outside has something to do with it… Who knows with me… Not much to say so im going… Peace!